MY HUBBY'S BIRTHDAY...

[He dropped his poem on to me on May 21, 1985, 2 days after the Lord had put us together.  This was a true gift.  I have had it on my dresser in a frame ever since.  It's still a HUGE blessing.  Filled with truthfulness when he wrote it when he was at the AFB and gave it to me suddenly.] 
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How can such a tough cookie be so fragile?
              Yet you are.
                           And I understand.

Fragileness is a part of your beauty, like a flower,
    and your willingness to risk hurt shown your strength,
         which balances and makes you whole.

I pray that i see your fragility,
     so i can trust you as i ought.
I would loathe to crush the flower underfoot,
    when i desire to nurture you and grow you up in Jesus.

I pray the Lord's forgiveness,
                                 and yours,
  if i'm not tender when i need to be,
     and tough when i need to be.

Love,
   David.

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   Tomorrow is Dave's birthday.  He'll be 56.  And, shockingly in our world, I'm 70.  He's been a HUGE blessing to me ever since the Lord dropped him into my life.  He's been a wonderful step-dad and loved by grandkids and, as I've said, a huge blessing for me.  I'd never thought, when I married back in Christmas Eve, '68, that I would never be divorced or forced to be apart.  In May, '84, it truly occurred.  And I was a very sad lady re: dealing with my kids and jobs and whatever I could.

     Suddenly, May 19, 1985, the Lord put us together.  We were both a bit shocked.  He, the youth director at a church I had entered about 3 months earlier and was at the Offutt AFB, was 25 and had never been married and was a strong Christian since he had come to the Lord officially when he was 10. On the other side, I had come to the Lord when I was 20 [April 15, 1966], and had a terrible history since childhood of fighting, attempting to commit suicide, very drunk sometimes, and, even when about 18 years old in the bars in Washington and Idaho, got mixed badly with the men.  I tried to change when the Lord broke into my life officially, but it took a bit of time.

     Anyhow, Dave has been a huge blessing to me.  And, surprisingly, he thinks I'm wonderful, too.  The best I can do is write pieces, take pictures, and show a lot of love through family and friends and serving the Lord.  Because of him, we were missionaries in Uganda.  I'd always WANTED to be a missionary when I came to the Lord, but couldn't do it.  We did it then.  He is/was a real treat to me.

     I don't know if I can keep blog pieces very often... my dementia and body and other issues keep me from doing all I want.  I sleep nearly a dozen hours at night and sometimes sleeping a few times during the day.  Oh, well.  And he's working as Facilities Manager at our church, has piano students in a variety of area of Omaha, fixes computers and gives them to people as a gift from the Lord, and plays piano or organ at 3 other churches during the Wednesday, Saturday, and Sunday times.  What a guy that blesses many!

     Anyhow, just wanted to have people smile.  Our 30th anniversary was 3 weeks ago.  So the blessing has expanded on me!  I love Dave and LOVE THE LORD!!

30th Anniversary; a fun day-time trip!

JEHOVAH IS OUR LIGHT!!

I RELY UPON THIS MOMENT-BY-MOMENT,

DAY-BY-DAY,

AND INSTANTLY ON MY HEART RIGHT NOW.

I TRUST MY HEAVENLY FATHER

CONSISTENTLY,

INSTANTLY!

ALL I CAN COUNT ON FOREVER...

[AND I ALREADY DO COUNT ON IT FOREVER, BTW]...

BETWEEN HERE AND HEAVEN 

HEAVENLY FATHER!

   For several weeks this has been laid on my heart and my holy spirit issue.  These words are used when I'm laying down in bed, when I wake up in the midst of the night or in the morning, when I'm driving around to other parts of Omaha or other parts of towns, and walking through my rooms here in the house and out of the front porch.  The worshiping words are consistent.  I've spoken them and I've sung them.  I've significantly worshiped and worshiped and worshiped.  That's what counts.  So, I'll put 1 word on each of the 6 photos.  And the big mix is right here.   So, here it goes:

KINGDOM COME...!

THIS IS ON MY HEART STRONGLY...

MOMENT-BY-MOMENT,

DAY-BY-DAY!

PRAISING AND WORSHIPING MY LORD,

MY HEAVENLY FATHER,

IS STRONGLY FOCUSED IN ME.

WHEN I DRIVE NEARLY EVERY DAY WHEN THE LORD 

TELLS ME TO GO, I GO WHERE HE TELLS ME TO, 

AND DURING THAT WHOLE TIME ON THE ROAD,

 I WORSHIP AND PRAY THE WHOLE TIME.

THEN, AT NIGHT WHEN I'M IN BED, I RECEIVE IN THE DREAMS

OF THE INVOLVEMENT OF MYSELF IN THE WORLD,

HELPING AND DOING FOR MANY,

AND, ALSO, ME BEING HELPED THROUGH OTHERS.

ANYHOW, THIS BIBLE VERSE IS MY HEART TODAY...

AND MY HEART FOREVER.

TRULY, IN MY HEART AND BRAIN, 

I'M LOOKING FOR HEAVEN, CONSISTENTLY!

ALL I CAN COUNT ON IS THAT MY HEAVENLY FATHER 

WILL BRING ME THERE ...

AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!

 

PRAISING THE LORD!

THIS GRABBED MY HEART TODAY!

PRAISING OUR HEAVENLY FATHER IS ALL WE CAN DO,

FOREVER AND EVER.

AND, THEN, A PHOTO OF ME FEEDING

ONE SIMILAR TO THIS.  WORTH A SMILE!

 

 

SPIRITUAL WARFARE

ABOUT 10 YEARS ON MY CAR LICENSE, BTW!

In the past 5 months the Lord has told me several times a week to drive around our general area... even thoroughly inside Omaha or, at the most, about 20 miles outside of Omaha... and my God-job is to worship, pray, praise, and focus on the demonic pieces that have been in our area and, consequently, pray strongly.  For more than 25 years I've been involved with something that is called Spiritual Warfare.  Basically, it's studying the history re: other gods being chosen, worshiped, sacrificed to, and being rejoiced over.  I have met some wonderful friends connected to Spiritual Warfare/Spiritual Mapping.  And those I'm involved with are in my general state area or in several of our states to the West and East and in other nations.  The Lord used me in a few of the nations to focus on the prayer and considering the way the Lord will be worshiped quickly and that anything demonic can lose some of the time with the people.  Since my body and brain are struggling day-by-day now, even shortly before I turned 70 in July, I can't drive to other distant states which I've done for years, and can't go to other nations.  Serving the Lord in my house and driving nearby is all I can do.  So, I'd love to  show some of the photos that were used in other nations... mostly shown in Uganda, Morocco, Costa Rica, and England... but can't do it all.  Some of the people that I was with were strongly involved in dealing with the spiritual issues and I just happened to be there, hearing info, and being taken around to see more.  In the U.S., I've usually been in the western portion, with all the states north and south.  Then, in the eastern portion, I was used that way in the 1990s, and strongly on 2009.   Some were wonderful situations and some broke my heart.  Don't know when I can do much any more, b/c of my age thing.  As I've said, my body and brain aren't working very well any more.  

       OH, and using the photo taken of me in Morocco, April, '01.  Gave it to my mom when I got back, even though she had hoped I would be on a camel, and this was all I could do, and she laughed and loved having it.  After she went to heaven in end of January, '11, when she was 90-1/2 years old, it was given back to me from my sisters.  Every day when I see this in my living room, I never forget that she loved this and was excited when I gave it to her.

TRUSTING THE LORD'S WORDS!

THIS GRABBED MY ATTENTION AND MY HEART

JUST NOW!  

COULDN'T NOT SHARE IT IMMEDIATELY

AND POP IT INTO THE HEARTS OF MANY.

BLESSINGS TO AND FROM THE HEAVENLY FATHER!

THAT'S ALL THAT COUNTS.