This is a “just thinkin’” aspect. Since I’m “thinkin’” all the time, it shouldn’t be a surprise. Most of my life I’ve avoided “emptiness” so I wouldn’t have to face the words and visions under the surface, protected by that constant flooding of thought.
Today, it’s different. After three years of squirreling around nearly incessantly in my home area of Omaha, I’m at my friend Susie’s house in northern Minnesota for a few-day visit. And one major joy? Sitting in one of my long-time favorite places. In front of her living room picture window, resting in a comfortable rocker, foot on the low sill, looking out over acres of land enveloped in miriad types of greenery, the occasional chipmunk, squirrel, or bird swifting through. And overall enjoying its emptiness. Can occasionally see the blip of a car down the distant highway. That’s it.
The constant inward drive to go and do and be and watch and prepare has slid to the back a bit. Still there, because the two of us spend hours hashing out those topics that affect us in many ways ... personally ... and our nation ... and the Body of Christ. Not many sweetness and light, fluffy subjects. But, can’t go anywhere, do anything at this moment that will pull me back into that total mentality of “go and do and be and watch and prepare.” Overall, I’m resting, retreating, relaxing... refurbishing my inner self. Enjoying the emptiness.
I leave on Thursday, and I know it will be only a few hours until the “normality” of life strikes again... probably when I cross the Nebraska state line. But for now, in a very rare time I would ever admit it, “emptiness” is a good thing.
Go forward to fullness